Los dΓas mΓ‘s oscuros de Ernesto Navallez llegaron cuando fue aislado en un confinamiento por agredir a un guardia. Estuvo en esa celda solitaria, desnudo, por 27 dΓas.
En cierto momento, un guardΓa se burlΓ³ de Γ©l, agitando una carta de su novia en la que decΓa que lo dejaba. QuebrΓ³ una ventana del coraje. Los guardias lo esposaron a los barrotes de metal de su cama. Ya habΓa tenido suficiente.
LogrΓ³ zafar su mano derecha de las esposas, y la utilizΓ³ para cortarse la muΓ±eca izquierda. QuerΓa matarse.
TodavΓa no cumplΓa 18 aΓ±os.
La tarde del pasado jueves, dentro de un edificio de bloques y un techo bajo en el sur de la ciudad, el pastor Navallez recibiΓ³ a su pequeΓ±a congregaciΓ³n para orar en la Iglesia ApostΓ³lica en Nombre de Jesucristo. Su esposa tocaba el Γ³rgano elΓ©ctrico y conducΓa a los fieles en los cantos de apertura en inglΓ©s y espaΓ±ol.
"Adoramos al Dios del valle", dijo Navallez suavemente ante los gritos de "AmΓ©n" y las alabnzas de los casi 20 fieles . "Y adoramos al Dios de la montaΓ±a".
Vinieron mΓ‘s alabanzas, en inglΓ©s y en espaΓ±ol. Como pastor por los ΓΊltimos cinco aΓ±os, Navallez ha hallado paz en su vida y su ministerio.
"Es un regocijo poder ayudar a la gente", dijo Navallez, quien acaba de cumplir 69 aΓ±os.
Encontrar esa alegrΓa y encontrar a JesΓΊs toma tiempo. Criado en el lado sur de la ciudad, Navallez encontrΓ³ los problemas fΓ‘cilmente. Se metiΓ³ a una pandilla -Los Bumpers- en la que tambiΓ©n estaba un hermano mayor. Estos muchachos andaban bicicleta pero robaban carros.
No terminΓ³ la secuendaria. Primero lo mandaron a "Mothers Higgins", el centro de detenciΓ³n juvenil del condado, y luego a Fort Grant, la correccional juvenil del estado.
Por los siguientes 26 aΓ±os, Navallez estarΓa entrando y saliendo de la cΓ‘rcel del Condado Pima, de la del estado en Florence y de la prisiΓ³n federal sentenciado por robo, asaltoo y trΓ‘fico de heroΓna. No usaba la heroΓna, pero cuando estuvo en una cΓ‘rcel federal en el estado de Washington se topΓ³ con el LSD y consumieΓ³ el alucinΓ³geno que fabricaban sus compaΓ±eros, dijo.
Esa era la ΓΊnica vida que Γ©l conocΓa. Pero en esos aΓ±os tambiΓ©n encontrΓ³ un camino para construir una nueva vida. Mientras estuvo encerrado coqueteΓ³ con religiones orientales -el budismo y el movimeinto Hare Krishna. En viejas fotografΓas se le ve contemplativo. Su cabello estaba largo y trenzado.
Un dΓa, en 1981, estando en la cΓ‘rcel del Condado Pima, un grupo religioso llegΓ³ ofreciendo la salvaciΓ³n. El mismo grupo habΓa estado yendo durante varios meses a la cΓ‘rcel en West Silverlake Road, pero los internos no respondΓan.
"HabΓamos decidido que serΓa nuestro ΓΊltimo dΓa", dijo Bithinia Ortiz, nieta de un pastor apostΓ³lico.
Ortiz vio a Navallez en la primera fila. Estaba callado y llevaba puest un sarape con su cabello hasta sus brazos. "Se veΓa intimidante", dijo. "Simplemente se sentΓ³ ahΓ".
Para sorpresa del grupo, Nevallez saltΓ³ a su llamado. PasΓ³ adelante y llorΓ³.
Fue su punto de inflexiΓ³n. LlorΓ³ de arrepentimiento y en redenciΓ³n, dijo. EnfrentΓ³ su pasado y sus acciones.
"Dios me permitiΓ³ salir", dijo Navallez.
No habΓa sido liberado de la cΓ‘rcel. Al contrario, volviΓ³ a la prisiΓ³n federal por una orden de la corte, pero en lugar de escupir Γ‘acido empezΓ³ a soltar palabras de la Biblia, la cual habΓa empezado a leer. PredicΓ³ a sus compaΓ±eros internos.
Navallez tambiΓ©n se puso en contacto con Ortiz, pero ella no querΓa tener nada que ver con Γ©l. Sin embargo, dos aΓ±os despuΓ©s, cuando Γ©l estaba en Florence, Ortiz lo volviΓ³ a ver cuando su grupo llevΓ³ el ministerio a los internos. El seguΓa interesado en ella pero ella seguΓa desinteresada en el humilde y arrependito Navallez.
"No me sentΓa atraΓda a Γ©l. Yo no estaba buscando novio", dijo ella.
Finalmente, en septiembre de 1990, Navallez fue liberado y fue a la iglesia para orar y para buscar a Ortiz. Se abrazaron, y ella sintiΓ³ algo distinto entre ellos.
Ocho meses despuΓ©s se casaron.
"Fue Dios" quien los uniΓ³, dijo ella. "Eso estuvo bien".
El mismo aΓ± en que se casaron, 1991, Navallez fue contratadp por una empresa ocal que crea paisajes artificiales para zoolΓ³gicos, hoteles, museos y otros sitios. Viajaba por todo el paΓy a tros paΓses creando y construyendo.
En el servicio del jueves en la iglesia, Al Zaragoza tomΓ³ la palabra. ConociΓ³ a Navallez cuando se estrecharon las manos a travΓ©s de la pesada cerca de la prisiΓ³n de Florence. Ahora como pastor asociado de la iglesia ApostΓ³lica en South Westover Avenue y West Dakota Street, cerca del Parque Manzanita, Zaragoza dijo que Γ©l y la congregaciΓ³n han visto a Navallez crecer y madurar.
"Me siento honrado de llamarlo mi pastor", dijo Zaragoza.
Navallez dijo que su don es dar consejerΓa. TambiΓ©n intenta conectarse con ex presidiarios. LlevΓ³ a su congregaciΓ³n de 50 miembros a visitar la cΓ‘rcel de Agua Prieta, Sonora, y les dio a los prisioneros artΓculos de higiene y ropa.
Aporta una fuerza tranquila y una experiencia fΓ©rrea de vida a su ministerios. Entre su congregaciΓ³n estΓ‘ un sobrino suyo que estuvo preso.
El domingo 5 de junio, Navallez bautizzΓ³ a JesΓΊs Valenzuela, de veintitantos aΓ±os y le dio la bienvenida a su congregaciΓ³n.
"Cuando me bautizaron sentΓ una fuerza real apoderarse de mΓ", dijo Navallez.
Dijo que su camino a aceptar a JesΓΊs en su vida sigue progresando. Se esfuerza por ser lo que Dios quiere que sea.
Navallez cree que sino hubiera aceptado a JesΓΊs seguirΓa en la cΓ‘rcel, o estarΓa muerto.
Ernesto Navallezβs darkest days came when he was put into solitary confinement for assaulting a prison guard. He was in the cell, naked, for 27 days .
At some point, a guard mocked him, waving a letter from his girlfriend that said she was leaving him. He broke a window in anger. The guards handcuffed him to his metal bed. He had had enough.
He freed himself of a handcuff on his right hand, which he used to cut his left wrist. He wanted to die.
He was not yet 18 years old.
Thursday evening on the cityβs southwest side, inside a slump-brick building with a low ceiling, senior pastor Navallez welcomed his small congregation to prayer at the Apostolic Church of the Name of Jesus Christ. His wife played the electric piano and led the congregants in the opening hymns, in English and Spanish.
βWe worship the God of the valley,β Navallez said softly to the shouts of βAmenβ and praise from the nearly 20 congregants. βAnd we worship the God of the mountain.β
More praise, in Spanish and English, came forth. As lead pastor for the past five years, Navallez has found peace in his life and ministry.
βItβs a joy to be able to help people,β said Navallez, who recently turned 69.
Finding joy and Jesus took time. Growing up on the cityβs south side, Navallez found trouble easily. He ran with a gang β Los Bumpers β which included an older brother. The boys, who rode bikes, stole cars.
He didnβt finish junior high school. Instead he was sent first to βMother Higgins,β the countyβs old juvenile detention center, then to Fort Grant, the stateβs juvenile corrections facility.
For the next 26 years, Navallez would be in and out of the Pima County jail, the state prison in Florence and federal prison, convicted of theft, burglary and dealing heroin. He didnβt use heroin, but while in federal prison in Washington state, he tripped out on LSD, indulging in the hallucinogenic drug cooked up by inmates, he said.
It was the only life he knew. But in those years he also sought a way toward a new life. While incarcerated he flirted with Eastern religions β Buddhism and the Hare Krishna movement. Old photographs show him in contemplative poses. His hair is braided and long.
One day, in 1981, he was in the Pima County jail when a church group came to offer salvation. The group had been coming for several months to the jail on West Silverlake Road, but the inmates were not responding.
βWe decided it would be our last day,β said Bithinia Ortiz, the granddaughter of an Apostolic pastor.
Ortiz spotted Navallez in the front row. He was quiet and dressed in a sarape with hair down to his arms. βHe looked intimidating,β she said. βHe just sat there.β
To the groupβs surprise, Navallez leaped to their call. He came forward and sobbed.
It was his turning point. He cried in repentance and redemption, he said. He took ownership of his past and actions.
βGod let me out,β Navallez said.
He was not released from jail. He returned instead to federal prison on a warrant, but instead of dropping acid he dropped words from the Bible, which he began to read. He preached to fellow inmates.
Navallez also reached out to Ortiz, by phone, but she wanted nothing to do with him. Two years later, however, when he was in Florence, Ortiz saw him again when her group went to minister to the inmates. He remained interested in her, but she remained uninterested and rebuffed the humble, contrite Navallez.
βI was not attracted to him. I wasnβt looking for a boyfriend,β she said.
Finally, in September 1990, Navallez was released and went to church to pray and to find Ortiz. They embraced, and she felt something different about the two of them.
The following year, eight months later, they married.
βIt was Godβ that brought them together, she said. βIt was right.β
The same year they married, 1991, Navallez was hired by a local company that creates artificial landscapes for zoos, resorts, museums and other places. He has traveled across the country and to other countries creating and building.
At Thursdayβs church service, Al Zaragoza spoke up. He first met Navallez when they shook hands through the heavy Florence prison fence. Now the associate pastor at the Apostolic church at South Westover Avenue and West Dakota Street, near Manzanita Park, Zaragoza said he and the congregation have seen Navallez grow and mature.
βIβm honored to call him my pastor,β Zaragoza said.
Navallez said his gift is counseling. He also tries to connect with former inmates. He leads his 50-member congregation to visit the prison in Agua Prieta, Sonora, and to give the prisoners toiletries and clothes.
He brings quiet strength and steely life experience to his ministry. His congregation includes a nephew who spent time in prison.
Sunday, June 5, Navallez will baptize 20-something Jesus Valenzuela and welcome him to the congregation.
βWhen I got baptized, I felt a real power had come over me,β Navallez said.
He said his path to accepting Jesus continues to progress. He is striving to be what God wants him to be.
Navallez believes that had he not accepted Jesus, he still would be in prison β or he would be dead.