LOS ANGELES β€” Growing up, Sage Sol Pitchenik wanted to hide.

Sage Sol Pitchenik stands for a photo Monday in Santa Clarita, Calif.

β€œI hated my body," the nonbinary 16-year-old said. β€œI hated looking at it.”

When therapy didn't help, Pitchenik, who uses the pronoun they, started going to the Center for Transyouth Health and Development at Children’s Hospital Los Angeles, the country’s biggest public provider ofΒ gender-affirming careΒ for children and teens.

It changed their life.

Now, in response to the Trump administration’sΒ threat to cut federal fundsΒ to places that offer gender-affirming care to minors, the center will close its doors July 22.

Pitchenik was among the scores of protesters who demonstrated regularly outside the hospital to keep it open.

Protesters chant slogans July 3 while demonstrating against the closure of the trans youth clinic at Children's Hospital Los Angeles.

β€œTrans kids are done being quiet. Trans kids are done being polite, and trans kids are done begging for the bare minimum, begging for the chance to grow up, to have a future, to be loved by others when sometimes we can’t even love ourselves,” Pitchenik said, prompting cheers from dozens of protesters during a recent demonstration.

They went to the center for six years.

β€œThere’s a lot of bigotry and just hate all around, and having somebody who is trained specifically to speak with you, because there’s not a lot of people that know what it’s like, it meant the world,” they told The Associated Press.

Children's Hospital Los Angeles, the country's biggest public provider of gender-affirming care for children and teens, is seenΒ July 3 in Los Angeles.

The center's legacy

In operation for three decades, the facility is among the longest-running trans youth centers in the country and served thousands of young people on public insurance.

Patients who haven't gone through puberty yet receive counseling, which continues throughout the care process. For some patients, the next step isΒ puberty blockers; for others, it’s also hormone replacement therapy. Surgeries are rarelyΒ offered to minors.

β€œI’m one of the lucky ones,” said Pitchenik, who received hormone blockers after a lengthy process. β€œI learned how to not only survive but how to thrive in my own body because of the lifesaving health care provided to me right here at Children’s Hospital Los Angeles.”

Many families are scrambling to find care among a patchwork of private and public providers that are already stretched thin. It’s not just patient care, but research development that’s ending.

Maria Do, community mobilization manager at the Los Angeles LGBT Center, stands for a photo July 3 outside Children's Hospital Los Angeles.

β€œIt is a disappointment to see this abrupt closure disrupting the care that trans youth receive. But it’s also a stain on their legacy,” said Maria Do, community mobilization manager at the Los Angeles LGBT Center. β€œI think it showcases that they’re quick to abandon our most vulnerable members.”

TheΒ Supreme Court recently upheldΒ Tennessee’s ban on gender-affirming care for minors, amid other efforts by the federal government toΒ regulate the lives of transgender people.

The hospital initially backed off its plans to close after it announced them in February, spurring demonstrations, but later doubled back.

The center said, β€œdespite this deeply held commitment to supporting LA’s gender-diverse community, the hospital has been left with no viable path forward” to stay open.

β€œCenter team members were heartbroken to learn of the decision from hospital leaders, who emphasized that it was not made lightly, but followed a thorough legal and financial assessment of the increasingly severe impacts of recent administrative actions and proposed policies,” it said.

Protesters demonstrate July 3 against the closure of the trans youth clinic at Children's Hospital Los Angeles.

California Attorney General Rob BontaΒ warnedΒ that by closing the center, the hospital is violating state antidiscrimination laws, but his office hasn't taken any further actions. Bonta and attorney generals from 22 other states sued the Trump administration over the executive order in February.

β€œThe Trump administration’s relentless assault on transgender adolescents is nothing short of an all-out war to strip away LGBTQ+ rights,” Bonta told the AP in an email. β€œThe Administration’s harmful attacks are hurting California’s transgender community by seeking to scare doctors and hospitals from providing nondiscriminatory healthcare. The bottom line is: This care remains legal in California.”

Lindsey Nelson, center left, and her son, Max Deiner, take part in a July 3 protest against the closure of the trans youth clinic at Children's Hospital Los Angeles.

LGBTQ+ protesters and health care workers offer visibility

Jack Brenner, an emergency room nurse at Children's Hospital Los Angeles, pauses for photos July 3 during a protest against the closure of the hospital's trans youth clinic.

Still wearing scrubs, Jack Brenner joined protesters after a long shift as a nurse in the hospital’s emergency room, addressing the crowd with a megaphone while choking back tears.

β€œOur visibility is so important for our youth,” Brenner said, looking out at a cluster of protesters raising signs and waving trans pride flags. β€œTo see that there is a future, and that there is a way to grow up and to be your authentic self.”

Brenner, who uses the pronoun they, didn’t see people who looked like them growing up or understand what being trans meant until their mid-20s.

β€œIt's something I definitely didn’t have a language for when I was a kid, and I didn’t know what the source of my pain and suffering was, and now looking back, so many things are sliding into place," Brenner said. β€œI’m realizing how much gender dysphoria was a source of my pain.”

Brenner shows a lanyard decorated with pronoun pins and buttons during a July 3Β protest against the closure of the clinic.

Trans children and teens are at increased risk of death by suicide, according to a 2024 study from the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.

Brenner described encountering young patients in the emergency room who are trans or otherwise on the gender-nonconforming spectrum and β€œat the peak of a mental health crisis.” Brenner wears a lanyard teeming with colorful pins emblazoned with the words β€œthey/them” to signal their gender identity.

β€œI see the change in kids’ eyes, little glints of recognition, that I am a trans adult and that there is a future,” Brenner said. β€œI’ve seen kids light up when they recognize something of themselves in me. And that is so meaningful that I can provide that.”

Beth Hossfeld, a marriage and family therapist, and a grandmother to an 11- and 13-year-old who received care at the center, called the closure β€œpatient abandonment.”

β€œIt’s a political decision, not a medical one, and that’s disturbing to me,” she said.

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